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When I was born I was happy, because everyone cherish the day of my birth.

Before I was age 13 I had a family I didn't even know what to cherish.

After 13 I didn't realized how lucky I can be so different than my friends to be out of country.

I never realized how desperate I want a family with mom and dad at the same place b4 I am all grown up.

At age 18, I've lost my gf and I lost financial support from parents.

Never know I can be that strong, and I've been through it.

I was all alone with friends around me, but I do felt lonely under a mask of happiness.

I thought I will be hugged when I came back HOME, but I was wrong.

I was blamed and I had been looked down, and I have no one to share with.

But I finally had a family with mom and dad.

When age 23, I never know I loved my dad so much after he passed away.

I tried and tried to made my mom to be proud of me.

But it wasn't turn out the way I wanted, even I've worked for 16hrs per day.

Everything was judged by money.

I was down I was sad and I still have no one to talk to.

I used to hide negatives deep inside with my happy face.

At age 28, I feel the same back when I was 18.

I was helpless and hopeless and still I have no one to talk to.

At age 29 the present, I feel friends around me once again.

It was warm and cherish, I've got it all and I do appreciated.

I will leave the past and walk towards, though I do not have confident but I will be brave.

Blueprint of life will never exist, be brave and believed in myself will brought me to a better future.

chia-yo
Lonelystars 12/22/2008